I have thought alot recently about the time that I KNEW I was at least
bisexual ...and for me that was a very early age, even though I didn't
act upon it physically until I was 19. I bring this up because in
"chats" with several women on yahoo, and when I was a member, on AOL,
quite a few women seem to be latecomers to this aspect of their
sexuality. As if they had gone their whole lives until one day at the
age of 25,35 or later, "poof...im into women I think."
When I was 12, it seems there was a perfect storm of TV shows that
showed women together...one in particular with a girl not much older
than I was at the time coming to terms with her desires, as well as
scenes in movies, and chapters in the books I was reading...it seems
that "IT" kept coming up ...and "IT" kept calling my name as it were.
The surefire final straw of when I KNEW came when I was reading some
book that my mom gave me to understand the birds and bees ..and it had
a chapter on what lesbians did with each other. I seem to remember
the slant of the writer was that this was rare and perhaps wrong
altogether behavior....but as I read the this and that of what women
did with each other in bed, I was sure that not only was there nothing
wrong with it, (as my family and friends and society seemed to be
beating into me) but that for me it was only a matter of time until I
was doing it. It was a matter of more time and maturity before I
factored in emotions and deep affections (love?) of the sexual acts.
When I look back, there were many many other signs...perhaps not as clear then as they are now...perhaps something to talk about here on this blog in the future.
I am curious about the time when it became crystal clear for
women ...I have seen, like on Oprah etc, women who knew from the
playground years ..and as I said, women who didnt know til a woman
planted a surprising kiss in later years. If you are reading this and want to share with others who wll stop by, share when YOU KNEW you were
into women?
In the time to come on here...I will share what has happened and is happening since the time I KNEW I was different...or is it all THAT different.
bisexual ...and for me that was a very early age, even though I didn't
act upon it physically until I was 19. I bring this up because in
"chats" with several women on yahoo, and when I was a member, on AOL,
quite a few women seem to be latecomers to this aspect of their
sexuality. As if they had gone their whole lives until one day at the
age of 25,35 or later, "poof...im into women I think."
When I was 12, it seems there was a perfect storm of TV shows that
showed women together...one in particular with a girl not much older
than I was at the time coming to terms with her desires, as well as
scenes in movies, and chapters in the books I was reading...it seems
that "IT" kept coming up ...and "IT" kept calling my name as it were.
The surefire final straw of when I KNEW came when I was reading some
book that my mom gave me to understand the birds and bees ..and it had
a chapter on what lesbians did with each other. I seem to remember
the slant of the writer was that this was rare and perhaps wrong
altogether behavior....but as I read the this and that of what women
did with each other in bed, I was sure that not only was there nothing
wrong with it, (as my family and friends and society seemed to be
beating into me) but that for me it was only a matter of time until I
was doing it. It was a matter of more time and maturity before I
factored in emotions and deep affections (love?) of the sexual acts.
When I look back, there were many many other signs...perhaps not as clear then as they are now...perhaps something to talk about here on this blog in the future.
I am curious about the time when it became crystal clear for
women ...I have seen, like on Oprah etc, women who knew from the
playground years ..and as I said, women who didnt know til a woman
planted a surprising kiss in later years. If you are reading this and want to share with others who wll stop by, share when YOU KNEW you were
into women?
In the time to come on here...I will share what has happened and is happening since the time I KNEW I was different...or is it all THAT different.
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